“Be an Encourager. The world has enough The world has plenty of critics already.”—Uknown
Hi there everyone! I hope you had a wonderful first half of the week! The last 6 days have been really tough. We all know that I have endometriosis but what some of you may not know is that I also have chronic migraines. I average anywhere from 5-20 headache days a month.; 5 of them are usually severe and I can’t function. Having a migraine is a challenge and you throw in having endo too and it truly amazes me how I’m able to function every day. I push through pain every single day and when I can’t keep pushing myself I try to rest. Rest is a crucial part to try not to overwork yourself. Migraines are induced for so many reasons; anxiety, stress, depression, etc. For me, I get migraines when I’m stressed. What I don’t tell a lot of people is it’s hard to prove myself at work and it’s a hindrance on my performance as a server. I try my absolute best at being a great server but each of is going to through a bad day every now and then and you know what? It’s okay to have an off day. A day when you want to be alone to think about what path you should take, especially if you are at a crossroads in life. My stress also stems from IVF treatment. I wish money grew on the trees in my backyard because honey this procedure is incredibly important and the only way that I’ll become a mother. It’s the only thing I know I’ll be good at. I love babies. I love changing diapers, answering questions, playing games and connecting with my friend’s kids because seeing other miracle babies makes me want to cry and smile all at the same time.
Back to my migraines. I’ve had them since I was 12. Pretty much ever since I’ve had a cycle I knew I’d get a migraine a week before starting and then get another one the night before and several days after a migraine makes its appearance. I have to lay in bed with the fan on high and asking my husband for soup and other things to make myself feel better. He literally is my knight in shining armor because, without Russell, I’d literally fall apart. I’m so grateful he chose me and continues to love me despite having several chronic illnesses. He has been with me since day one cheering me on in anything I wanted to do and accomplish. I couldn’t have gotten any luckier to have a husband like mine. And it’s like he cooks, cleans, gives the girls baths, and is ALWAYS telling me how much he appreciates what I do and I include him every step of the way. He is my rock and has been the last few years of me being sick. When we met I wasn’t like this. I didn’t have unusual periods, they were painful as hell but they were like any other cycle. But as our relationship grew and we became closer day by day, we notice that we couldn’t sit around and wait for our turn. Some days are easier than others. Some days I just want to cry because I’m not sure how this journey is going to pan out. Will we end up paying a pretty for the treatment? It’s not guaranteed, honestly, the most irritating about the situation is that if you fail you have to start all over again from scratch. But we do have a plan in place in case this doesn’t work. I go for another ultrasound before stating my other meds next week. I’m nervous but I’m trying not to be. I’m keeping myself busy because then I can think about other pressing issues, you know like writing for Do You Endo. I hope the next thing I work on will blow your socks off. I’m not quite ready to share but once I’ve gotten a little bit more done I’ll share a sneak peak. One more thing before I go, please send us all the love, prayer and positive energy you can think of. We truly need it. **Disclaimer** Russell is perfectly healthy and we have nothing to worry about on his end. He basically has superman swimmers. haha So now that we know it’s me I need to prove to people that no matter how hard the situation is you have to keep fighting. Don’t get me wrong this path has been not the easiest path but I believe that we are getting ready to change our lives for the better. I also know that no matter what happens our destiny has already been chosen for us, we just need to keep doing what we are doing because we are stronger than ever. Our anniversary is in a few weeks. I’m looking forward to just spending some time alone celebrating together. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have you by my side and I don’t know where I’d be without you.
Also, as I mentioned before I’m working on something that is very out of my comfort zone. I’m nervous about it but that’s okay. I’ll be sharing bits and pieces of what I’m working on because I don’t want what I’m working on to be healthy, our country and decisions to have an abortion, etc. I love my husband so much. More than I can even put to words. I just melt every time I see what could possibly be coming my way soon. Please keep in touch and don’t hesitate to share my blog. I love meeting new people and talking about their journey, where they are and what they plan to do. I think it’s empowering for women to establish their tribe. Going through infertility you want to make sure to ask if she’s out. Please don’t hesitate to contact via email and I will give you the best type of advice I can.
I hope this blog helps you all with whatever you are going through ❤ Again if you need to talk please feel free to reach me here: email@example.com.
Until Next Time