It might take a year, it might take a day but what’s meant to be will always find it’s way — April 9, 2017

It might take a year, it might take a day but what’s meant to be will always find it’s way

The quote above was what I needed to read this week. I’ve been seeing a lot of pineapples in the most random places and each time I see one I am reminded that a miracle baby will eventually (hopefully soon) be on his or her way.

As most of you know I was on a medication called Aygestin last month. It is a fertility medication that stops your reproductive organs for a brief period of time (mine was 3 weeks). This is to help try to kill off some of the endometriosis and shrink the endometrioma. Well the medication worked in that aspect. I had three more new and growing cysts and the aygestin was able to get rid of them! Yay! I had an ultrasound that showed I had a really healthy egg and we were told to try and if I didn’t get my period I would go in to see if they could find out if we were pregnant. Well I ended up getting my period a few days ago. I’m not going to lie or sugar coat it…I was disappointed, sad, angry, frustrated, and had that feeling of being let down. I gave myself that 10 minutes to cry and be upset and then I immediately called Dr. K’s office. I have an appointment Monday for an ultrasound to make sure my eggs are still healthy and hopefully there are a few more that come out dormancy since the endometrioma has shrunk. I was told  by the nurse on the phone we will be going straight to clomid. This medication is more aggressive (in a good way). This will allow our doctor to closely monitor the rest of my cycle, doing some testing and tell us the exact day that is best for conception.

All of this is so exciting to me and I am thinking of how things could work and how our lives could change in an instant. I’ve rearrange the house and done all of my spring cleaning, including clearing out the garage, because the day I am told we are pregnant I want to enjoy every moment of being pregnant. So often I see women complain about how they don’t want to be pregnant anymore once they hit month 7 or 8. But what those women fail to realize is women like me and many many others would give anything to know what it feels like to have a baby growing inside you. I see little comments every day that bother me because from my perspective they are taking their pregnancy for granted because there are so many women who are not blessed with the opportunity to have a child.

To my friends and family with children. Hug them a little closer each time you see them because one of your friends could be going through something so unimaginably lonely and you may not know. Remember 1 of 8 women suffer from endometriosis. 1 in 8.

Please send us all the baby dust in the upcoming weeks. I am hopeful that we can conceive our little miracle baby!

until next time

xoxo

I Am That Girl — January 27, 2016

I Am That Girl

As many of you know, I am now the new Dayton Chapter Leader for the AUH-MAZING non-profit organization called I Am That Girl. For those that don’t know this non-profit is a fairly new organization. I am beyond grateful to be the leader for the city of Dayton. So here is some information so you can get to know a little bit more about what I will be doing and trying to accomplish.

I AM That Girl (IATG) was founded in 2008 by Alexis Jones and Emily Greener. Their mission is to empower young women through having honest and open conversations in a safe environment. Thank goodness for women like them starting their own non-profit to bring women up, not tear them down.

I decided to get involved because all too often we see how awful people can be towards one another. I have seen first hand the way young women are spoken to and I want to change that. I want to change so many things about our society (but that’s another post for a different day). I want to change how women view themselves. How many times do we say “I’m fat” “I’m ugly” “I’m not wearing a cute outfit”…the list goes on. I want to change that. I want girls to say I’m pretty without having to wear a lot of makeup. I don’t need to be a certain size for me to think I’m pretty. I want women to say my body is the way that is it and I’m so thankful for the way I was made because that’s what makes me unique. We all can’t be the same. We all can’t look the same. BUT we all can defy the Hollywood stereotype of what makes a woman beautiful. I’m telling you what ladies, ALL of you reading this is beautiful. You are all unique and that makes you special. You don’t have to be a model to be pretty. You don’t have to have a lot of money to be pretty. What makes a person pretty is what is in their soul. Are you the kind of person that wants to see others succeed? I hope so.

I personally believe your vibe attracts your tribe. If you are negative you are going to get negative friends. If you are positive you are going to get positive friends. You can’t lead a negative life and expect to get positive results. What you put out into the universe is what you will receive. So surround yourself with like minded women who want to change the word. Because I tell you what, it only takes one woman’s fierce determination to change one thing. It’s better to change one thing about the world and leave it a little better than you came into, than to not try at all.

Until next time!

xoxo

Body Shaming Ads — December 9, 2015

Body Shaming Ads

 

Dear Lane Bryant and Victoria’s Secret,

I’m going to be quite blunt here. Both of these ad campaigns make me mad. Both of these ad campaigns are exactly why body shaming exists. Both these multi-billion dollar companies should be giving women all over the world confidence instead of sending a message that tearing each other down is the only way to be. Body shaming exists no matter what size you are. Skinny shaming exists for those who are thin. It’s in the subtle ways like when someone asks if you’ve eaten today or when a stranger or friend says “you need to eat a cheeseburger”. Same goes for fat shaming. Fat shaming happens when a person says “when was the last time they worked out?” or “maybe so-and-so should eat a salad instead”. There are plenty more skinny/fat shaming comments that I could use as examples. However, you should be better than that. Lane Bryant, why do you have to use the #I’mNoAngel when you know that Victoria’s secret has an Angel Collection of bras and underwear? And Victoria’s Secret why do you have to use the same size model to define what a perfect body is? Both of these campaigns are counterproductive to ALL women in society. Women all over the world are going to see these campaigns. What are women who aren’t plus sized supposed to think when they see your #ImNoAngel campaign? Are they supposed to be okay with the fact that you are taking a jab at VS for their angel collection? VS how are women who are plus sized supposed to feel when they see this ad? Both of these ads make women around the world uncomfortable. THIS is the conversation we should be having. WHY is it okay for big companies to insult one another and make women feel self-conscious. The goal in this world is to teach our daughters that they are beautiful just the way God made them. They don’t need to see ads like this because this will make them question how they look. THIS is why women can’t be supportive of one another. THIS is what creates competition. Ads like this are what make people think there has to be a definition of the “perfect” body type. How about this Lane Bryant and Victorias Secret. What if you just put out the ad, no slogan, no jabs, just the company name? Plain, simple, to the point. Maybe that would encourage women to feel comfortable in their own skin.

Sincerely,

A girl who wishes we could all be supportive of one another

An open letter to my best friend — November 8, 2015

An open letter to my best friend

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Caitlyn

To say I’m proud of you would be an understatement. Your hard work, persistence, and never give up attitude landed you in the Top 15 of Miss Ohio USA. Watching you last night on stage was one of the highlights of my year. This journey hasn’t been easy for you ( but how boring would it have been if it was?!) but you pushed hard, made sacrifices, and knew that with God on your side you could do anything you set your mind to. Preparing for a pageant is more difficult than anyone can imagine. You worked harder than ever; working out, practicing, and even watching what you eat (btw I hope your enjoying a donut as you read this!) to make sure your body was in top shape, and you looked amazing!

Caitlyn, you are one of the kindest, sweetest souls I have ever met. You show me day in and day out what it means to let God show your way. Throughout this entire process you have known all along that God has a bigger plan for you than you can imagine. I can’t even begin to tell you how amazing that is. Watching you grow and become more confident in yourself has been such a joy.

I am so grateful to have you in my life. Thankful for all of our conversations. Thankful to have a pageant sister like you that goes to the end of the earth for her bestie, even if we do live 3.5 hours away from each other. I am in awe of your grace and how much your give of yourself. I am so thankful for the friendship we share and can’t wait to see where your path will lead you.  Thank you for being the role model, an inspiration, and more importantly for being a strong woman of God.

With love

Official shoot as Miss Miami Valley Captivating — July 21, 2015

Official shoot as Miss Miami Valley Captivating

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Have you ever had that feeling that you are so lucky to have met someone? Well that has happened to me. Before pageants I had only known one photographer and while his work is amazing he lives an hour and half away from me which isn’t always easy, especially when he has other things he does. So one day I just happened to take the spot of a girl who couldn’t do a Mary Kay vendor event. That is when I me Beth. Oddly, it was like love at first sight, seriously. She is the most bubbly person and she is so just so cute and SO MUCH FUN! I am so thankful for her. Like I’ve said in my previous post Beth is amazing to work with She find these amazing places to shoot and I just always have a blast when I’m with her

The purpose of this shoot was to showcase me , officially, as Miss Miami Valley Captivating! I love every photo. The first photo you will see is my favorite because I was not paying attention. Beth was doing a few practice shots and this one made the cut. To me it is so stunning and elegant, everything a girl wants to feel 🙂 These pictures are so fun and so me and if you have a chance please follow Beth on instagram (@bethphillipsphoto) and see her work for yourselves!! Check out the link below to see my fabulous pictures!!

http://bethphillips.zenfolio.com/p259510470

Until next time!

xoxo

What I would tell my younger self … — June 22, 2015

What I would tell my younger self …

Growing up in this world is a very beautiful yet cruel thing. Growing up you find out who you are, what you want to be, who you want to grow to be in life. Growing up can also be weird and hard at times. Being a girl there are so many things in life we have to learn about, so many things that can only be self-taught and so many things we wish we could do over.

If I could go back and talk to my younger self this is what I would tell her:

1. You are enough.

Growing up I always wondered if I was good enough. Good enough for the friends I had, the boy I was dating at the time, or the job I had. I was enough? (There are still days that are a struggle and I have moments when I’m not sure of myself)

2. That boy who told you, you were ugly is stupid.

Let’s face it, teenage boys are dumb. They aren’t going to be right or know the right things to say to a girl. They are going to make you feel bad about yourself because they have raging hormones that they don’t know how to control.

3. Your first love is going to hurt like hell.

Learned this the hard way and twice. The first boy I ever fell in love with, I dated for two years. I loved him and I loved him hard. I gave him my heart and I thought he gave me his, twice. What’s the saying? Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me? Yes, I gave my first love a second chance. I thought we were going to be better but you can’t fix what’s already broken. I would go back and tell myself that loving him was going to feel the world is ending, but it isn’t. He is just going to be one chapter in your life. He will always hold a special place in your heart and you’ll always have wonderful memories, but he is going to make you stronger, not break you.

4. Your first time is going to awkward.

Your first time is NOT, I repeat, NOT going to be like it is in the movies. (thank you to the notebook for letting us down) It’s weird and exciting all at the same time. It’s definitely something you’re going to remember.

5. Life is a journey of up’s and down’s…enjoy it because tomorrow isn’t promised.

I have always been the kind of person to worry about EVERYTHING! I have always thought that making sure every aspect of my life was perfect would mean I would be happy. THIS IS FALSE!!! Let go, live a little. Be a free spirit. Don’t take your friends for granted and let go of the ones who really only want something for you.

6.. Spoil yourself.

If you see a pair of shoes, buy them! Don’t pass up a good sale and always remember fashion is the best way to express yourself!

Until Next Time!

xoxo

Hello world! — May 8, 2015

Hello world!

Welcome to my first blog! I want to take this time to introduce myself to the blogging world!

My name is Angelica and I am a 25 year old trying to make a name for myself in this crazy world. I have three dogs that I will talk about a lot and who are more to me than just dogs, they are my crazy fur children. I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend, Russell, for almost seven years now.I love my Mary Kay and have been a consultant for over 4 years!  My best friends mean the world to me and they are my confidants, I would be lost without them. I currently compete in the amazing pageant world.  (More on that later) I love food, so don’t be surprised when I blog about my latest adventures to local food trucks and farmers markets. I love fashion, my family, shoes, and animals. With each passing blog youll get to know more about me! Until next time when you get to find out why I decided to name my blog brown biscuit adventures!

xoxo