Is there really a way to deal with death?

Over the weekend I received news that someone very close to me passed away unexpectedly. This person was not only my boss but my mentor and a true friend.

You see, eight years ago I applied for a job at Longhorn. When I got the call back for my interview I was hired on the spot. Bob was the kitchen manager back then and I didn’t see a lot of him because we worked mostly in the morning and afternoon. Over the last eight years I have talked to him about a countless number of things. I have talked with him about my chronic migraines and he would tell me stories about his ex-girlfriend that had them. The looks on his face the gestures he made were enough to make me laugh. Every time I saw Bob’s car sitting in the parking lot I was happy because I knew it was going to be a good night. Although Bob was serious and wanted to make us the best Longhorn in Dayton, he also cared deeply for us. We were his pride and joy. We meant a lot to him. At our last meeting he stood in front of us and cried, said he failed us and he was going to do better. But what he didn’t realize was that he never failed us. He never failed anyone. He was living up to our expectations and so much more. Yes, he had a lot on his plate but he was always there when we needed him. He was there for the community too. He was involved in countless organizations making sure everyone had what they needed. His legacy will not stop because each of us at Longhorn Moraine is going to carry on his legacy. We are going to make sure that we carry him through everything we do.

So my question is, is there really a way to deal with death? I loved Bob so much. There were so many things I wish I could have told him. I have cried, I have laughed, I have screamed and yet I still feel an emptiness in my soul. Everyone grieves differently. For me its crying on and off, trying to hide my feelings but knowing that eventually they are going to come to the surface. I don’t think there is any specific way in which we should grieve. Grief is a long process, sometimes harder than others.

I will never forget bob’s infectious laugh or the simple shrug he would give when he didn’t know the answer to something or he didn’t want to tell us. I’ll never forget the endless jokes and the last conversation I was able to have with him. I lost a great man in my life. I lost someone very near and dear to my heart. He will always be with me. I will carry on his legacy. I will not ever let him down.

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If you haven’t heard of Beth Phillips Blair, you are missing out on getting the best pictures you’ve ever seen taken. She is incredibly talented and I am beyond blessed to know her and call her my friend.

I met Beth a few years ago at a vendor event. I was filling in for a girl who couldn’t go. Beth approached me and handed me a Stella and Dot look book. (Everything is super cute) We stayed in touch through social media and when it came time to compete in my pageant last year I borrowed a few items from her. This year she decided she wanted to expand her portfolio and asked if I would be her model. Of course I said yes! Beth also did my official photos for Miss Ohio US International. We were outside in the cold, while it was raining, taking these photos and they turned out beautifully.

We went to studio one in Dayton. I had never heard of studio one but when I got there I knew it was the perfect space. We went with two outfits and did a mini boudoir session. I have always loved being in front of a camera and knew this opportunity would be fantastic. The session was super quick and so much fun! I was laughing and comfortable. Those are two things that are very important to me when I am modeling for someone. I want to be able to have a good time but most importantly I want to feel comfortable. I have always been a little shy and insecure but with Beth there is no second guessing. There is no thinking if I am standing at the right angle or look good in the lighting. Shooting with Beth was a dream come true. Her work is perfection and she takes it very seriously. There aren’t enough wonderful things I can say about Beth.

I hope you all enjoy the photos as much as I do because I never felt more amazing! For more information about Beth check out her website! http://bethphillips.zenfolio.com/

Until next time!


body shaming, fitness, women

body shaming and how it could change everything if we stopped it

Fat shaming. Skinny shaming. Making a negative comment in some way shape of form about someone else’s body is body shaming.

I have my own issues with body shaming. I am naturally thin, enjoy working out and taking good care of myself. I enjoy posting pictures of my workout journey because I’m proud of the body I have. I have goals and I also realize I have a long way to go in my fitness journey. But I also realize there are going to be people who don’t like seeing what I have to post. They don’t want to see the results I am getting from the work I am putting in, at home and at the studio that I workout at. I realize there are going to be people who are going to have a negative comment about the way I look or the way others look.

Take for example, Rebel Wilson at the 2015 MTV movie awards. She wore leather leggings that said “think” on the back with a pair of white angel wings. She says she did it to help girls be comfortable in their own skin. But is that really why she did it? She was making fun of Victoria’s Secret super models and their being thin. I thought the effort she made was good but the message was saying it’s not okay to be thin.

On the other hand you have people fat shaming others. Something more recent is when Kelly Clarkson was fat-shamed on The Mike Gallagher show. She has had a baby in the last year and just because she doesn’t look the way some think she should, gives them the right to judge her for the way she looks.

So why do we fat/skinny shame others?  Why do we feel like we should have the right to comment on how someone else looks? I think some do it because they don’t like the way others look. I think some do it because they aren’t happy with themselves and they don’t want anyone to feel good about they way they look. I really feel like some people shame others because they don’t want anyone to look better than they do.

How do we stop this? We stop body shaming by keeping our comments to ourselves. We stop body shaming by encouraging others to complete their fitness goals. We lift each other up, every day, instead of trying to bring them down. Bringing others down is not going to solve anything. Bringing others down is only going to make us feel worse about ourselves.

I can tell you from personal experience, that body shaming hurts. It also fuels me to be better than I was yesterday. Just last week I had a lady ask me if I eat cheeseburgers. Let’s be honest, I love a good cheeseburger, as much as, the next person. I just choose when to eat them and how often. As I turned to attend to another table she looked at her husband and said, “I hate to be that thin.” Yes, I understand I am almost 26 and have a thin frame. So thin in fact, that I still wear junior’s clothing. But what that lady didn’t know is that I have gained 9 pounds and have never felt better about myself. Sure I have my insecurities just like every other girl but I don’t need anyone to tell me how I should look.

If we stopped body shaming maybe women would be more supportive of each other. Maybe if we had nicer things to say, the world would be a better place to live in. If we stop body shaming, we may be able to see the best sides of ourselves and others.

Until next time.



Fifty Shades of Grey

Holy 50 shades! This movie was more and less than I thought it was going to be. First, I loved Dakota Johnson and Jamie Dornan in these roles. I really liked that we got to see two “unknowns” in such big roles. I thought they both did a great job and can’t wait to see them in the future movies. I had so many favorite scenes but one that I laughed at was when Anna goes to Georgia to see her mother. They are having cosmos and Christian sends Anna a text that reads, “ANOTHER cosmo”. She says, “holy fuck” and he shows up. I also really liked when they were in the glider. That scene looked like so much fun. (I mean I don’t think I could ever do something that adventurous but it looked like fun). I will say, I did think we would see more of his family during this movie just because they played such a big role in the first book. So I’m hoping we see more of them in the future movies. I thought the movie was on point and now I can’t wait to see 50 shades darker.

Now I have to talk about the Red Room of Pain. When this room is described in the book you get a very clear image of what this room looks like. This movie went above and beyond all expectation I had for what this room would look like. I thought everything was perfect, the flogs, whips, handcuffs, the suspension from the ceiling, the bed, all of it. I was highly impressed but I was surprised there weren’t more scenes in the red room of pain.

I also watched the unrated version of the movie. I didn’t see anything that was worthy of the unrated rating. I was hoping it would get as steamy as the book and get an NC-17 rating but it didn’t, which is fine, but for a movie like this it should push the envelope (in my opinion). I understand there is a lot of nudity and talk of being dominant/submissive, which is something that a lot of people don’t have a lot of information about. I also didn’t see why people got so upset and said Anna was being sexually abused. She consented to everything they did. If he asked her she said yes, even if it wasn’t what she thought was going to happen. If Anna had been forced to do things she didn’t want to do or was saying no and he did it anyway, that is sexually abuse. This is just Anna experiencing what being a dominant/submissive is and what roles they play in their sexual relationships.

Until next time!




For the last year I have been a volunteer for Shoes4theShoeless. Shoes4theshoeless is unlike any non-profit that I have volunteered for. For those who may not know about Shoes4theSholess, here is a little background.

Shoes4theShoeless was founded in 2010 by Kris Horlacher. Shoe4theShoeless provides well fitting gym shoes and socks for children in need. The county that I live in is Montgomery County and 41% of people are living in poverty. Some cases are worse than others. Sometimes we see kids whose shoes are so badly worn that they don’t have soles on the bottom. Sometimes we see cases where the kids feet aren’t growing properly because their shoes are too small. Shoes4theShoeless wants to make sure no child in our area goes without a properly fitting pair of shoes.

There are so many reason I chose to volunteer for this organization. Being able to give back to my community was a big reason. Another reason I wanted to volunteer is because I love kids. Kids don’t have control over their situations and when their families don’t have the means they aren’t going to have what they need. I thought this was the perfect organization for me. The first time I volunteered it was really overwhelming. I was participating in the Miss Ohio Latina pageant. I didn’t know what to expect and that day my life changed forever. I always knew that there were people who lived in poverty but I didn’t realize that some kids really do share a pair of socks with their parents or siblings. I’ll never forget a little girl that I helped. She loved the color pink and she said she wanted to be in a pageant but she said she wasn’t pretty enough to be in one. It broke my heart because this little girl was beautiful. When we were done getting her shoes and checking her out she turned around and gave me a hug. She thanked me for the shoes and told me good luck. That hug is the hug that changed everything. The kids that we help are the sweetest kids you are ever going to meet. A simple pair of shoes and few pairs of socks make their entire day. Some of them cry because they are so happy they have a new pair of shoes. Volunteering is so overwhelming because most of us take a properly fitting pair of shoes for granted. We don’t think twice when we put our shoes on in the morning. But what if we had to wear shoes that hurt our feet or were really dirty and didn’t smell the greatest? Being able to give a child this gift is more of a blessing than I’ll ever be able to tell you.

For more information about shoes4theshoeless please go to http://www.shoes4theshoeless.org



Brown Biscuit Adventures

So many of you are probably wondering why in the world I chose to go with Brown biscuit adventures as the name for my blog. Yes, I know it sounds crazy and weird but I wanted something catchy. So I thought long and hard and it was either going to be adventures of a twenty something, adventures of a brown biscuit or brown biscuit adventures. Well I love to Instagram and thought it would be really awesome to have my own hashtag associated with my blog. That’s when I decided on brown biscuit adventures. So if you are on Instagram or Facebook and happen to read my blog or I said something funny or interesting, use my hashtag #bbadventures, so I can keep up with you all!

Two weeks ago I competed in the Miss Ohio US International Pageant (I’ll dedicate a later blog post to my experience competing for the title of Miss Ohio US International). While I was there I met my soul sister Caitlyn. Well let me put it this way, we had officially met, but we had been facebook friends and we are pretty much the same person. (hahaha) I knew when I met her that we were soul sisters. After the pageant we both decided that this was our year to get our crowns and she had called us brown biscuit sisters, which I loved and thought was hilarious. So ever since we have been brown biscuit sisters, hence the name of my blog and hashtag. The pageant world can be tough and sometimes we don’t get the results we want. But out of the experiences come friendships. I am so glad I was able to meet my soul sister, even if she does live 3.5 hours away.


animal lover, fashionista, foodie, make up lover, Mary Kay Cosmetics, pageant girl, shoe addict

Hello world!

Welcome to my first blog! I want to take this time to introduce myself to the blogging world!

My name is Angelica and I am a 25 year old trying to make a name for myself in this crazy world. I have three dogs that I will talk about a lot and who are more to me than just dogs, they are my crazy fur children. I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend, Russell, for almost seven years now.I love my Mary Kay and have been a consultant for over 4 years!  My best friends mean the world to me and they are my confidants, I would be lost without them. I currently compete in the amazing pageant world.  (More on that later) I love food, so don’t be surprised when I blog about my latest adventures to local food trucks and farmers markets. I love fashion, my family, shoes, and animals. With each passing blog youll get to know more about me! Until next time when you get to find out why I decided to name my blog brown biscuit adventures!